Day 19: "Discuss your first love"
Well, now, I don't know how to start this. After many years of puppy loves and infatuations, I became enamored by this lady. However, she never knew it because it was more of a secret first love. She never knew my feelings. I do believe as I did years later that I wasn't in love as much as just "strongly" infatuated. As a matter of fact, every lady I thought I was in love with, I wasn't. I have a history of confusing lust and infatuation for love.
It was high school.
There was this young lady. She was a Senior. I was a Junior. She was dating a good friend of mine, who was a Junior too. We attended the same high school. We had no classes together. We didn't hang out before, between or after classes. The only time any of us were together was when we met for the church youth group choir. (Yes, I was in one of those for a few years too.) We only had the one thing in common. Music. The good thing was we played and sang popular music with a slightly slanted religious nature. No holy roller themes or bible pounding gospel Praise the Lords.
One day, I woke up and realized I was smitten for this lady. I can't explain the why. I couldn't think of what to do about it either. Should I tell her? Should I tell my buddy that I suddenly have the "hots" for his girl. It was the first time in my life that I had feelings for a girl for absolutely no reason. There never was any flirtation between us. It was strange. Maybe chalk it up to hormones gone wild. IDK. All of sudden something in your heart kicks in and bang!, you are in love. Or you think you are in love more like it. As it is, the school year wore on and nothing ever came of it. At the start of summer we moved away and I never saw her again.
I can't say I was heartbroken. She wasn't mine. I had never declared my feelings. Had I, maybe this story would be different. As it is, I have no idea where she is today or whatever happened to her. Have I ever thought of her over the years? Yes, but then again I've thought of all those puppy loves over the years too. Wondering. How did they turn out? Did they blossom into beautiful flowers? Or this?
It's just the way first loves go. Now my second love was different story, but will save that for some time later or maybe an analyst's couch. And I believe she probably resembles the above picture more today then when I met her.
Day 20: "3 Celebrity Crushes"
Well, now, I don't know how to start this. After many years of puppy loves and infatuations, I became enamored by this lady. However, she never knew it because it was more of a secret first love. She never knew my feelings. I do believe as I did years later that I wasn't in love as much as just "strongly" infatuated. As a matter of fact, every lady I thought I was in love with, I wasn't. I have a history of confusing lust and infatuation for love.
It was high school.
There was this young lady. She was a Senior. I was a Junior. She was dating a good friend of mine, who was a Junior too. We attended the same high school. We had no classes together. We didn't hang out before, between or after classes. The only time any of us were together was when we met for the church youth group choir. (Yes, I was in one of those for a few years too.) We only had the one thing in common. Music. The good thing was we played and sang popular music with a slightly slanted religious nature. No holy roller themes or bible pounding gospel Praise the Lords.
One day, I woke up and realized I was smitten for this lady. I can't explain the why. I couldn't think of what to do about it either. Should I tell her? Should I tell my buddy that I suddenly have the "hots" for his girl. It was the first time in my life that I had feelings for a girl for absolutely no reason. There never was any flirtation between us. It was strange. Maybe chalk it up to hormones gone wild. IDK. All of sudden something in your heart kicks in and bang!, you are in love. Or you think you are in love more like it. As it is, the school year wore on and nothing ever came of it. At the start of summer we moved away and I never saw her again.
I can't say I was heartbroken. She wasn't mine. I had never declared my feelings. Had I, maybe this story would be different. As it is, I have no idea where she is today or whatever happened to her. Have I ever thought of her over the years? Yes, but then again I've thought of all those puppy loves over the years too. Wondering. How did they turn out? Did they blossom into beautiful flowers? Or this?
It's just the way first loves go. Now my second love was different story, but will save that for some time later or maybe an analyst's couch. And I believe she probably resembles the above picture more today then when I met her.
Day 20: "3 Celebrity Crushes"
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